Sunday, November 28, 2010

A Trouble Halved, excerpt


My entry in the Dreamspinner Press Christmas anthology, A Trouble Halved, is the most personal story that I've written. While the characters are not based on anyone in my family, the setting is my Grandparents' house where I spent my summers and school vacations while growing up.

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ALLEN slammed the door to his bedroom, knowing even as he did it that it wouldn’t win him any points with his mother. Even so, it slammed with a satisfying thunk hard enough to rattle the pictures on the wall.

Throwing himself on his bed, he wished he had a time machine, that he’d go to sleep and wake up nine months in the future, that he was already in college where he could actually start his life and do something. High school and living under his parents‟ thumbs was getting harder each day.

Without warning, his door opened and his mother stood in the doorway, her face red. “Allen Matthew, if you slam this door one more time, not only will you be grounded for a week, but I’ll lock you out of your computer.”

He seethed, wanting to scream that he was eighteen, that he had bought his computer with money he had earned, that she didn’t have the right to do anything to him anymore. In the end he remained silent, knowing anything that he said would set her off again. He’d asked to skip the annual Christmas visit to the grandparents in Pennsylvania, but she had hit the roof. “Okay, Mom. I won’t slam it anymore.”

“Thank you. Please pick up your room before you go to bed. It looks like a pig sty.” She slammed the door on the way out. Not the satisfying loud thunk he’d managed, but enough to make a point. It was her house, and she could do as she wished.

Allen saw his laptop sitting on his desk and pushed himself off of his unmade bed to pick it up, kicking the dirty clothes that littered the floor under the bed. His mother would see the difference, but he wasn’t really doing what she’d asked. He’d dig out the clothes someday and throw them in the laundry.

He logged on and started to e-mail Dusty about Christmas but pulled out his cell instead.

“Hey, what’s up? What’d your Mom say?” Dusty sounded excited, and Allen hated to disappoint him.

“No go, man. I got a lecture on family responsibilities, and she was all „the grandparents are getting older‟ and „they’re not going to be here forever‟ and „I could give them one week out of my busy, important year‟.” Allen built up a good head of steam, telling his best friend all of the things that he wished he could have said to his mother. He continued without allowing Dusty to say a word, “You know what, though? It’s not just a week! It’s every holiday, every summer. I miss everything here while we’re in fuckin’ Pennsylvania.”

Dusty said, “That bites. I’ll tell my Mom you can’t come. Real sorry, man”

“In less than a year, though, we’ll be away at college and won’t have to worry about it.” He wished that they would be going to the same college, but even if they had been best friends for most of their lives, they had different interests. Dusty would be going to art school while he would be going the University of Virginia to study Chemistry.

“So what do you do up there, anyway?”

“Nothin’ much. We used to go out and play in the snow and build snowmen and all that shit, but there aren’t many kids there anymore. And who wants to build snowmen, anyway? It’s all old people there, and they just sit around and look at old pictures and talk. No broadband. Boring. As. Shit.”

Dusty, ever the optimist, said, “You can always take your laptop and hide in your room and watch movies.”

“Yeah, maybe. Listen, man, tell your Mom thanks for me, okay? I gotta get this paper finished before tomorrow.”

“Sure. Later, man.”

Instead of working on his English paper, Allen logged onto Facebook and checked to see if Greg had added any new pictures. Once part of the group Dusty and Allen had played with when they were younger, Greg had drifted away when they got to Junior High. While Dusty concentrated on art and Allen had set his sights on science and math, Greg had tried out for the football and baseball teams and excelled. He was too busy with his jock friends, college scouts, and local media reporters to spend time with his geeky childhood friends.

Allen clicked on one of the new thumbnails and was so lost in the tanned skin, blue eyes, and blond hair that he almost missed the chat invitation that popped up at the bottom of the screen. Expecting Dusty, he clicked without looking to see who it was.

GregHarmon: Allen, u there?

Friday, November 26, 2010

A character revealed


Last week I wrote about losing Connor. He was such a wonderful dog and it's been hard getting used to life without his constant presence. Our other dog, Pippin, thought that he should have equal time on my blog, so this week I'm posting a picture of him and revealing that he is one character who has appeared unchanged in one of my books, Unexpected Guest.

While Connor was a quiet presence, Pippin is an in-your-face attention grabber. Very sweet in his way and very exuberant, he settles down with me early in the morning when I write and most of the words that I've written have been "set to paper" with his head resting on my lap.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Good bye, big boy




Connor died last night. He was a big dog, 120 pounds, and had been having trouble getting around for almost a year. He was fine when I left for work and died after taking a few breaths when I got home.

He was a wonderful dog. He would have been the result if I could have custom ordered my perfect dog. When I was going through chemo, he was my constant companion - checking me out when I coughed, sleeping next to me instead of in his bed, standing next to me when I was laying on the sofa and resting his head on my chest. He knew something was wrong with me and did everything in his doggie arsenal to make me feel better.

It's never easy to lose a pet, but losing Connor hurts more than I could have imagined.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

More than three months!

I know that I've been busy. I know that because I've been working sixty hours a week, because my knees hurt, because I still have flowerpots filled with frost-killed coleus next to our front door, and because I forgot to order the usual Godiva chocolates for my partner's birthday. I didn't quite recognize how busy until I logged on and realized that it had been more than three months since I've been here.

Why have I been busy? Because healthcare is changing and we've just had a major computer update. Oddly enough, my last book used a computer update as a plot device. When I wrote it, I used past computer updates for guidance, but I should have waited and used this actual update. More drama than I could ever dream of writing into a book!

I entered my chosen profession because I love science. I find joy in getting a mathematical formula to work out, in identifying a bacteria that we shouldn't isolate in this geographical area and then finding out that the patient had just traveled to someplace where it is endemic, and to finding the best solution to a problem. As my career has progressed over the years, though, I find that I get to participate in very little actual science. Because I was good technically when I was younger, I was given the chance to manage and now deal more with the paperwork that keeps the department running. Also interesting, but in a very different way. Some days I miss the science and other days I find a new joy in receiving a peer-comparison report to find out that we set the benchmark for efficiency in our group.

Why am I thinking about all of that? Don't know. I'm stressed and trying to figure out how I got here. I want to write but am too tired. The most creative thing that I've done lately is to knit a hat, but even that gave me a chance to grow as it was the first "non-flat" thing that I've ever knitted.

I watched Glee last night. Glee isn't a perfect show and I read a lot of criticism about how unrealistic it is, but I can get around that and love the show. I love musicals, I was in band and chorus in high school, and it brings back memories of some of the happier times in high school. Last night's episode dealt with people being bullied and I'm sure that I'm not the only one to have personal experience with that.

Last night's episode is still with me. I got up this morning and watched it again, I've read all sorts of blogs and discussion about it, and it's been sort of stewing around in the background all day. I was honestly surprised when the bully jock kissed Kurt. Not too many shows actually surprise me, but this did. I can't wait to find out where they're going with this. Would it be possible to redeem this bully into a love interest for Kurt? Don't know how I'd feel about that. Blaine with Kurt? More obvious and he's a cutie but I got a friend vibe from their interaction and not a romantic vibe. Guess I'll have to wait to find out.